finally… probably

so i think im happy now… well, maybe just how i was before all those feelings and shit i never wanted to have (okay, maybe i did, but not in those circumstances) happened. i really dont have a word for it. im not used to identifying what i feel because up until her my days were constant ennui. wait, no, i was already changing way before. i guess i really am a late bloomer (gad, you dont know how much i hate that word). sigh, im rambling again. ‘point is, im getting hungry so im gonna leave this post like this. bow.